Going to be very little updates for the next weeks or so. Currently, I am smacked right in the middle of my director's cut. I'm taking this time to write on the journal while I wait for FCP HD to load up. It takes a whopping 15 minutes to bring up the entire thing. And we are running the new Dual G5s.
Looking back at what I have done, it's quite satisfying to see how I have currently evolved from my very first film. Heck, I wrote my first film 'Liberta Me' on Microsoft Excel! I think to me the important thing in staying grounded is always remembering where you come from. The friends that helped you there, lend support or was just there for you when you felt lost.
I would like to say that I began filmmaking at a tender age of 8 or that I always wanted to be a filmmaker. In reality, I don't even think filmmaking was even an option for me, even when I was 21. I think I became a filmmaker because I was a failed fashion designer. In fact, that was why I came to US, to get a degree in Fashion Design. I enrolled in community college class and one of the classes was Beginner's Video 101. I think the only reason I took up that class was because my dad would never let me touch his video camera even to shoot family events (because it was too expensive and I knew nothing he said) and I had never touched a video camera that it felt slightly rebellious to do it.
But my school wouldn't let me do Video 101 unless I had something to show, to prove that I had some background in it. Of course, I had none, so I had to create one on my own. I borrowed my friend's camera and made this little short. I called it 'Fade to Black' at that time but everyone said it sounded too much like that Metallica song so I used 'Liberata Me' instead. Somebody told me to hold an audition and I did and a whopping 3 PEOPLE TURNED UP! Well, guess I had my cast lined up already!
We made Liberata Me, finished it and next thing I knew I got a call from some female named Joan. She told me she saw a copy of my film and wanted to screen it in a festival. I was like ok, sure, whatever. NOW! BEAR IN MIND! When she said she was a festival, I thought it was like food and drinks and booths with performers and stuff. I never knew film festivals were a business, nor was i a big deal to begin. Even when she told me that she would like to screen out-of-competition, I really didn't mind, who cares! Free food and drinks...It's only when she said that the festival was not in the US was I dissapointed. I ain't travelling just to eat food! So I sent my film and never went.
2 months later, I started getting calls from newspapers and the media. Apparently, it was a big deal in Tucson to be screened at The Cannes Film Festival! What the hell is that! I had no clue but people were making a big deal of it. People were shocked that I wasn't going to cannes, instead, I was going to school, waiting for Video 101 class. One of the reporters actually caught wind of my ignorance and sat me down and explained to me everything...and yeah...I was quite in shock....
I got kicked out of Video 101 school because I would not write 'Appropiate' material and I would shoot insane topics. During one of our pitching classes, I had to pitch on a project to the students and they would vote which movie they would make. My pitch was to make a claymation movie about A Giant Sperm God. My teacher said it wasn't appropiate so I changed my pitch that second to making a black and white movie about color or a silent film about sound design. That didn't fall through. My teacher told me to start changing my ideas otherwise he would fail me...well...he did. My GPA went from 3.8 to 2.9 in one semester. I'm still upset by it.
Somehow, I managed to make another 2 films over the 2 years of me doing nothing. Then a producer approached me to write a film. Something simple and I wrote a story about a brother and sister. But there was no punch and kick to it. We sat down and hashed out over many months how we could make this movie sellable. I said, 'lets make it a science fiction film, about DNA Hacking'. So we weaved the elements into the story and called it 'The Gene Generation'. We were in limbo for 2 years, rewriting it until we were ready. Then in stepped Bai Ling and the other players and now I'm blogging during my editing.
That's my story in case people wanted to know or bothered to read it. It's really rough but I need to get back to work. The point is, I never get sick of telling my story because everytime I tell it, it reminds me of where I come from and to never forget that. If you look at my IMDB listing, I have produced more movies than I have directed. Not because I want to be a producer, but because I think that people should be helped and given a chance. Heck, nobody gave me my chance and I felt crappy. I don't think anybody should be in my position where 3 people turned up for an audition or have a mentor consistently tell you that your art is wrong. So I hope to help many aspiring filmmakers get their start one day. In between directing, I hope to be there for the people that need it. Filmmaking is a group effort, we cannot do it ourselves, I understand that because I went through that. Nobody else should...
.p.s. whatever happened to Fashion Design? Well, I kinda got wrapped up making my 2nd movie I forgot I had classes and failed...
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